im going to leave you now
theres nothing for me here
its all the same
and even though i know
that everything might go
go downhill from here
im not afraid
okay so i didnt go to school at all today. and i am feeling so much better.
yes i am. : ) i made a livejournal last night / early this morning. and stuff
i'll be using them both. if you want the link ask me for it and i shall give it
to you. (probably) hmm i want to get out of this house badly. i slept until
1.30 today hah - go me.. now i am awake and rejuvinated and i need to
get out. my dad left and now he is in new mexico.. i want to do something
and get out of here but the only thing any one wants to do is get drunk
and party. im so sick of that. why do people think the only way they can
have fun is to get fucked up. it just makes you act stupid and feel sick
the next day. although i dont know why im whining ive never had a hang
over or felt sick the day - after but still. oh well. guess im just growing
out of that. i need a hug. damnit. i feel very.. useless and worthless and
just plain like the dumbest person on earth. the ground should open up
underneath me and swallow me whole. itd do a lot of good for some people.